Wednesday, 7 September 2016

Binge eating/ The Facts,The affects and life being a binge eater. (TW)

Binge eating/ The Facts,The affects and life being a binge eater. (TW)
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Quarter to one on a Sunday morning a glass of wine in my hand with the telly on in the background. My thought's are racing and my urge to go and eat something even though I'm full is strong. The urges seem so strong tonight or are they like they normally are I can't tell. I'm going to try and fight these urges and do something productive and write this post I was meant to write all week but I haven't felt like turning the laptop on. But tonight It's on and I'm ready to write this post. It's something I'm ashamed off but it's really something that I/others shouldn't be ashamed off. This is going to be a lengthy post.

Binge eating is a illness that is a secret for a lot of sufferers because of the Stigma attached to it. I also think that not a lot of people even know what it is. Binge eating is a Disorder and I think that a lot of people refuse to believe that it is. But it is. Binge eating disorder is where a person feels compelled to overeat on a regular basis through binges. You feel in a daze while you are carrying out. Food becomes you're comfort but also enemy. People binge consume large quantities of food at one given time. They can also carry out a binge when they are full. There is usually a reason why people do it as it is a form of Self Harm. Its dangerous just like every other disorder. And like every other disorder every person is different.. Some people plan there binges ahead of time and binge on "special" food. I really want to POINT this out and say every person is different. So every habit is different. You can't point a mental illness at a text book and say that everyone suffers the same. This is one thing on many people getting confused at and then accusations fly around which is very wrong and will make people thing they aren't suffering. To me I didn't fit the text book symptoms on any of my illnesses which made me think there was nothing wrong. But there was.
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The affects of binge eating isn't something I've ever heard anyone talking about. But I really think it's important to talk about. This is something that's going to be so hard to see wrote down but if I'm writing posts like this then they have to have what's affected me during it. One of the main affects for me is obesity. The weight I've gained is really embarrassing and some people that haven't seen me over a couple of years barely recognise me and I find it so horrible to deal with. Other affects are never really feeling full after a normal amount of food. Bad bowel movements. Going from one extreme to another  from not giving your body what it needs to giving it to much to digest and deal with. Bad skin from all the JUNK food I consume in a binge. Also one thing big affect is the changes In my menstrual cycle. Before it would be very on time and that's how I liked it. But now it's all over the place because of the weight gain from binges which is very frustrating. Other affects are bloating of the stomach, I also can get Fatigue from the binges and it affects my everyday life. I'm always wanting to sleep. You can get loads more symptoms so yet again every person is so different and the symptoms will be.

Life of being a binge eater and the mental side of the disorder. This is something that plays so many factors in the disorder. One minute you hate it so, so much and the next minute you want it to comfort you and make you feel better and take all the pain from what you're feeling inside. It's very much a vicious circle. I always plan on never doing one again after the binge and the affects because it makes me feel so ill and fatigued. But after a couple of days I completely forget what it does to me and I get so obsessed with wanting to do it again and have that "comfort" it provides. That's why I say it's a form of self harm because it becomes a addiction and a way to deal with life events. The emotional side is the worst. The way you see yourself and the way you think others see you is always playing on your mind. You always think the worst and your body image goes down the drain. With me you can see the affects it has done to me. I've gained weight I have serve low mood and my skin in terrible but still do it even though I see what it does to me. Why do I do this to myself that's the biggest mystery because does it make me feel better or is it something that makes me think that I feel on the top of the world during it. Because after it I feel so bad and always regret it when I see the damaged of the binge.

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Binge eating Disorder is a eating disorder. Eating disorders isn't just one kind. And I think that shocks a lot of people. But there are a few disorders that that people can suffer from and it's called a Eating disorder. It took me a long time to admit that there was something wrong. Few years of  eating not a lot and then constant binges I had to seek help for it. But yes I have a Binge eating disorder and I've wrote this to help people feel less alone and for maybe for me to connect to suffers because it is a very lonely disorder and it makes me so small.

This is a lengthy post but I really wanted it to be to get my point across. It's a very serious disorder and so many people are affected by it. But it is also a very secretive disorder and that many don't talk out about. Like any other disorder it can be dangerous. I  would advise to get help for it or maybe talk about it with someone you trust because getting it out there does make you feel a little better. Because You/I can't hold this in because it's not healthy for anyone.

I hope this post has helped some of you not feel so alone and to maybe think of getting some help or talk to someone you trust. I can talk for Britain at the best of times. But when it comes to mental health I can talk and talk and do even more talking. Because it's so important to me. I have a little platform I'm going to put it to good use.






7 comments:

  1. This is such an honest and heart felt post darling, I admire you for having the courage to write it. I had no idea you struggled with an ED, as you probably know, my daughter does too and they are vile, the most vile thing I've ever come across. I am so pleased you sought help for it and I am sending you all my love and some huge hugs too, you know where I am if you ever need to talk xx

    Zoe ♥ MammafulZo

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    1. Both yours and Coles videos on her experience through her ED were so eye opening for me in realising that I'm not alone so I also thank you two for sharing. Hope your both doing well xx

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    2. Thank you so much! It's a ED that's not talked about that much. So I thought I would write it. I used to watch Coles videos back when she did them and I adored her as a person. I also watched when you two did the videos on her struggles with the horrible disease. They were so eye opening and helped loads of people. I hope Cole is doing well, Thanks so much Zoe sending you loads of hugs and love too.
      Thanks for commenting
      xxx

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    3. Thank you so much lovely and thank you to Philippa-Chloe too, I can't reply to her comment but thank you so much I appreciate your kindness. Cole isn't great unfortunately, she has always been up and down and unfortunately at the moment it's a down time but hopefully she'll be ok and we'll be up again soon. I thought your post was very brave but also very insightful and will be helpful to others, sending you big hugs and lots of love xxx

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  2. I hear you! I understand and know what it's like going through all of it. The thoughts of over eating quite literally take over your thoughts. Problem is, I then feel so much guilt for what I've done that then results in another form or ED :( You should be so proud of writing this down and thank you for sharing your story. We are not alone :) xx

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    1. Hey, Philippa thanks for commenting. I agree with everything you wrote. The thoughts are the worst part. Like you said they take over. I'm so sorry to hear that you struggle to because it's so horrible. Sometimes I go into another ED which is scary but doesn't happen often. Thanks lovely. I really just want to make people feel less alone. And that we aren't. I'm always around for a chat.
      Thanks for commenting
      xxx

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  3. I don't suffer with binge eating but I do have my own mental health battles to deal with and I think it's really great that you're spreading more awareness. I loved what you said about how not every mental illness is the same, and nothing is necessarily going to be what you 'textbook' think it will be. I've found that to be ridiculously true. People see certain stereotypes of mental illnesses on television and in the media and they just assume a LOT which can cause so many issues. I think it's so important to remember that each mental illness looks different on a different person.

    Julia // The Sunday Mode

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