Friday, 5 August 2016

My Five signs that i was struggling with a Mental illness (TW)


This post has been a long time coming. I think I wanted to write it but I didn't no how to approach it really. This was something I've struggled with and I know a lot of others have. It's something the nation struggles to accept and something that the people close to us have a hard time dealing with. Signs of mental illness. What are the signs. Are they all the same. And what were my five main signs of discovering that I had a mental illness. That's what I'm going to be discussing. It might be long.. So grab yourself a cup of tea.

Firstly I'm going to discuss My five signs that I was struggling. This is my signs but they my be other peoples too. But I'm in no way saying everyone has these. 

Any sign is important and no sign is any lower then the other one. This is going to be dating back to was when I was 14 so ten years ago. My very first sign was being angry. That might sound strange but it was. I was never a angry person before this but all of sudden I was always raging at something. Everything annoyed me and I was just unreachable. My second sign was Self care. That went down the drain. This might sound not very nice but I would only shower when I was forced to and brushing my teeth was something that didn't happen all the time.. I just didn't care and that was a worrying sign because it affected my confidence with being so young. Third sign. Feeling down and losing interest in everything. I walked around with such a glum look that nothing would change it I was so down and at one point I thought I would never be happy again. Fourth sign Low energy and being tired and trouble sleeping. This was major for me. I would find I would always be so tired and feel like I had no energy and would just slump around and wanting to sleep all day. But I also had insomnia which would cause me to not sleep for 18 hrs at its worst. Fifth sign Self destructive behaviours. I'm not going to go into detail but that's something I really struggled with and still do till this day..

That was my five signs but I did have more but that would be a very long post. These were my signs that something was wrong.


What are the signs. Well I've been doing my research and this is what it comes up with.
Confused thinking
  • Prolonged depression (sadness or irritability)
  • Feelings of extreme highs and lows
  • Excessive fears, worries and anxieties
  • Social withdrawal
  • Dramatic changes in eating or sleeping habits
  • Strong feelings of anger
  • Strange thoughts (delusions)
  • Seeing or hearing things that aren't there (hallucinations)
  • Growing inability to cope with daily problems and activities
  • Suicidal thoughts
  • Numerous unexplained physical ailments
  • Substance abuse

  • But does everyone that suffers from a mental illness have these symptoms. This is a hard one to say and I don't think anyone could answer that. But what I will say is that if you don't have any of the symptoms doesn't mean that you aren't suffering from a mental illness. I think is so easy to label something with these " signs " I don't like to give myself  a label and I also think it's very important to ask for help when you need it because "signs" can mean that you've been struggling to long. If you notice anything different you should confide in someone or go to your local GP. Mental illness is a very complex situation and every mind is different so that means everyone is going act different.

    I have had a few bad situations when it comes to this in my adult life. They like to say there's nothing wrong with me because I wear makeup and like to look smart. So these remarks make people think that everything is ok even though your suffering so much inside and you keep it inside because you think no one else will believe you.

    Just remember that your problem is in your brain not on the outside. Don't let people tell you what you know you feel inside.

    I'm going to list helplines just because I think it's so important to talk to someone. Even if it's to a complete stranger.


    0800 1111

    You can also speak to a 1 on 1 counsellor which is amazing. But this is only for under 18 teens.


    1. This is a really brave post. As I tweeted, I really believe that people posting things like this will help break down stigma and help encourage others who may be struggling to take the first steps to recognise that something is wrong and take care of themselves.
      You should be really proud of yourself for using your platform to share an article so positive and helpful. I've suffered with mental ill health and am now looking forward to retraining as a mental health nurse. I'm really inspired by how you've used your blog!
      Sending you best wishes and positive vibes,

      Nicky xx |

      1. Thank you so much. I believe that too. I think the more people write about the more people will think they can talk about there experiences. How exciting that your going to be re training again soon. Best of luck with it.
        Thanks so much for commenting.